I wipe up spit with my hands now......

Well it's been a lil while since i've wrote a blog post. What i've learned in the last 3 months is that no amount of shit or vomit will make me not love this guy. I always knew i wanted kids but it was one of those things i'd say but never really undestand the meaning. i'm not sure if that makes sense to you. This little man has completed my life....i know it sounds lame but i feel like i had something missing and now that he's here i know what it is. Yes i get frustrated because he's little and can't talk and cries and I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS!!!! but in the long run of things....look at that face....i make a good lookin kid! I mean Mr. Big helped but really i'm the looks lol ok i'm mostly fucking with you.

So i know that having a kid i should watch my mouth and all but i'm not sure if you noticed but i'm a curser....i'm afraid i will need to tone it down because i'd like his first words not to be fuck or shit.....oh lord help us all when he starts talking. Poor bd (baby dad) is going to have his hands full with the kid and i talking too much lol.

Ok so this was brief but i have Mr. Fussypants next to me, kicking me in the leg.....i am going to actually try to keep this updated and not have lame "all about my kid posts" but really i cannot promise anything and you bitches will read about my child and love every fucking word....the end lol

About what i said last time.....

So um...yeah it's been almost 9 months since i've wrote a post and look what happened to me

Little did i know when i was writing my last blog post that i was in fact knocked up....it's as if the world is laughing at my ridiculous life.....i mean fuck i'd laugh too, don't get me wrong! but i'm not the world and i have to be the one lugging around a flippin baby! So needless to say i have a baby boy due in 3 weeks 6 days....go ahead, laugh...................................done? well i'm dissapointed but i'm not...obviously i wanted a baby but not like this and i wish i was a bit more "stable" but fuck it, god gave me what he thinks i can handle...i do question his judgement sometimes but that's another post. So baby dad and i are working out how to be parents and not kill each other......still love him.......still hate him.......still plot his death BUT now there is gonna be a squishy lil ball of joy thrown in the mix........i seriously can't wait to meet him

ok that's it for now :)

HOLY FUCK I'M BACK!

So it is officially the 6th day of 2011 and I pretty much hate everyone……..probably not the best way to start a new year right?......fuck it!

 So Mr.Iloveyoubutcantcommitbutwilltalkaboutbabiesandmovinginwithyouandallcommitmentythings have called it quits….yes you’ve heard this before, yes I’ve said this before, yes you’re tired of hearing it, yes you can fuck off now….just sayin



But I want one of these….yes a friggin baby…and marriage….look at my niece in her little princess dress I bought her for Christmas….this right here is what my little heart lives for….and really I’d have the most BEAUTIFUL BABIES EVER…oh sorry

So I’ve decided that I can’t stay around with a man who shows me how great things could be between us and then slaps my hand away when I reach for it. After 5 years I think it’s time for this little lady to move on….yes I sound like john wayne right there with the “little lady” thing but screw it, it’s my blog right?






So what now? OMGIDONTKNOWI’MSLIGHTLYPANICKING….it’s hard to move forward after being with someone for that long…although it has always been a struggle (our relationship that is) so I should be use to this by now but alas I am not….so my first step is to stop being a friggin baby and get my shit together….step one: write in blog that I have so sadly abandoned for like……forever…..and get my school shit together and work out and clean my house and……….well apparently what I’m doing is living for me! I’ve decided that I am great and a man who says he loves me and truly does, will want to have babies and marriage and puppies and endless nights of wild sex on the living room floor! Or some of that shit….oh god please let it be the sex part!

Words that describe me...PROCRASTINATOR.......ok so only one word

Ok so here's pretty much what you can count on when you know me....ready? I'm a procrastinator....like major....like if i were bleeding to death i'd probably finish a movie before driving myself to the hospital to get stitched up....BUT it runs in the family......so at least i'm not alone in the ridiculous that is me

With that said....here are my 365 photos for the last uh...well 5 days because i suck and cannot get myself to the computer to actually post these fuckers...

pic 1: Spartacus got a new collar..she's pissed it has a bell and now i know when she's about to attack me...muhahahahahah spart-0 sara-1

pic 2: my new adorable shoes that i love and am actually wearing today! woot

pic 3: dude i totally cooked and it's healthy and it's in my points and i'm a happy girl

pic 4: well this is the pic i send to Chaia everytime she says she hates me or won't do something i like

pic 5: well that's red mango and i love it and i want to have babies with it...thanks

I pretty much looked like this when i was little (probably still do) lol

you're welcome for updating bitches! except that i'm lucky you read my blog so never mind...ok i'll take today's pic sometime today and post it i swear!!!

OMG I HAVE 7 FOLLOWERS!!!! and I LOVE SNICKERDOODLE COOKIES!!

Ok so it's around THAT time and i want to eat my face off, preferably with anything sugary, salty or cheesy...oh and i bought two snickerdoodle cookies and they are no normal cookies...they are the huge ones that you love and cherish (see to the right)...i'm only eating one right now but i will most likely....definitely end up being the girl under the cookie.......shit......but hey at least i'll get a cookie right?!
Well now that i've properly explained just how unbelievably chubby this little bitch gets......let's move on

So Chaia and i (chaia is the bestie) have decided to do the photo 365 thing right? Except we don't want to join the actual one because we like to party....ok no not really the main reason is because we don't want to take pics of stupid shit.......like fucking landscape......so the rules are.......you have to take pics of yourself, you with something you love or of something you love even if your ass can't get in the pic.......also i should not be allowed to have a camera phone because this is bound to end up horribly.......i fucking warned you guys.

Also! i want a VW Beetle......like so bad........like bad bad.....like so bad that i'd trip a small child to get one.......yes i'm a child tripper fuck you....they are so cute though!

it's the devil cancer supporter duck....just go with it guys...i'm tired

ok here's the first pic....no making fun, i'm almost to my monthly, have some periods and no hair or makeup done....fuck you assholes you're lucky i'm here!

OMG I ALMOST FORGOT THE 7 FOLLOWERS PART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok so like one is my brother, one is my cousin, one is the bestie and one is a guy at work and one is me...shut up asshole. BUT 2 OF THEM ARE NOT RELATED TO ME AND WANTED TO FOLLOW ME!!!!

i'm secretly totally in love with both of them for following me....not like lesbian love....mostly....ha joking perverts

I'm dying....slowly, crippingly,horribly....deathly?...

Oh shut up it sounds good in my head! Well not good but they all seem like the best words to describe this crap....except maybe deathly.....shit

So 28 is looming around the corner like a hooker on a side street begging to love me long time.....know what? 28 WILL NOT LOVE ME LONG TIME! I'm slowly closing in on 30 and still have yet to be an "adult" or what i assume a fucking adult is like.....what the hell am i to do?! OK so first i breathe.....then there should be drinking.....like a crazy amount of drinking....except that I'm at work and cannot drink because I'm "responsible" whatever the fuck that means....i can barely take care of myself let alone Spartacus...oh that's the spawn of Satan, otherwise known as my cat>>>>>
she looks all cute and innocent but i warn you, do not get sucked in.

So I'm having the pre-midlife crisis crisis and it's really not as much fun as i thought....there's no new sports car and there is definitely NOT a hot hunk of man waiting at home for mama! oh that gross let's not use mama as a way to reference one's self unless one is actually a mother and even still just no....

oh and also....in addition....as well.......I'm so ready to be done with school so i can stop working in the corporate world where I'm sure Satan rules...so the lesson we've learned today ladies and gentleman?............absolutely nothing right? you've just listened to me freak the fuck out and have no real agenda to this blog

I thank you for letting me suck 3 minutes from your life...i plan on doing it again soon :-)

Fail....on all levels guys

So i started cute week as you can see and i never finished....yes this is the story of my life. Not that i'm not cute anymore but i never posted the rest of the pics, got busy and neglected my poor little blog all together! Son of a bitch it's a good thing i don't have a child >.<

Ok so school starts again and i'm excited/horrified that i have to be there 5 DAYS A WEEK....but once it's done i'll be golden right?

I have nothing interesting to report because....well....life isn't that dramatic around these parts.....still talking to Mr. Big but have a date on saturday........the new guy is adorable.......like i wanna rip your clothes off and lick peanut butter off your chest adorable......we'll see how this goes lol

It'll be hard to say goodbye to Mr. Big but sometimes a girl just needs Mr. Right ya know? not that new guy is Mr. Right but at least the fucking door is gonna be open for him to stroll his sexy ass in!

Also i'm gonna blog more.....at least i keep telling myself this......it's really not that fucking difficult so what's my problem?!?! Oh yes it's laziness my dear friends...So i was doing stumbleupon.com the other day right? and wouldn't you know they have PORN??! I was embarassed/couldn't stop looking...yes i like porn shut up...oh gosh my brother reads this........cripes

Ok so wish me luck on my "date", i don't actually know what we are doing so who knows if it's a real date but eff it it's a sexy man who wants to hang around the ridiculousness that is me.....poor fella

Day 2 of "cute" week....fuck you

Ok so today is day 2 and well....this is what you get



yes it's sad i know but i can explain...so i'm in school right? and i get home at 10pm and then i have to be up at 4:30 so i woke up at 5:03 and was bustin my ass to get to work on time so i didn't get to put conditioner in my hair, blow dry my hair or in general do anything awesome with it. Got to work and waited for it to dry....then i flat ironed it....THANK GOD FOR FLAT IRONS....and the outfit....well it's comfy and looks acceptable....except i'm chubbeh!

And i have eye makeup on so i'm semi presentable....ok i failed a little today....

*sigh* guess i can't have it all now can i?


fucking son of a........

Day 1 of "cute" week....

Ok bitches, i actually put on a semi decent outfit, got my hair blow dried then straightened (it still looks a tiny bit funny but fuck it) and.......AND i have makeup on....oh lord watch out for me!

ok so there's me...still chubby but hey i look almost put together! Oh and i lost like 3lbs...i mean ok! this day is getting better! What does suck though is i have to go to school tonight and i haven't doen any homework....i mean like none..zip....zilch....SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT so today after work i have to go home and read some BS about mouth diseases and junkity junk...i know you're jealous of my fabulous reading.

Ok so this wasn't the most entertaining blog ever but hey, i blogged, you read, you still love me and i'm adorable....well....some of that shit at least

Dear Life: I'm sorry i've neglected you like some sort of filthy wench...

So i've realized that i've let my life get away from me. I'm unorganized, procrastinate...A LOT and all in all not living my life to it's fullest. It's sad to realize this whilst sitting at work supposedly working.

In high school i was lazy with my school work and just didn't care...and guess what? Yes it followed me into what we now call "adulthood". At some point one has to become an adult and get themselves together. I've decided that maybe, JUST MAYBE i can start slowly getting my life together.

For the last 4 years i've been with Mr. Big and i've avoided doing things because he didn't want to, because he wouldn't enjoy it, because he might be coming over and what if i'm busy and can't see him and OMG I'M THAT FUCKING BITCH WE ALL HATE. How the fucking shit did i allow myself to get so entangled in Mr. Big that i lost the adorable, awesomeness that is me? I've forgone dating because what if said man gets it together and can finally commit? What if i never see him again?....in the end would it matter? It's like a little light is beginning to shine through...now don't get me wrong, i adore Mr. Big in every way imaginable but at some point you realize that maybe, just maybe this is not what God has planned for you and that hopefuly......OH HOLY HELL hopefully there is another Mr. Big who is everything you need/want/desire and that your actions now are making it harder for you to meet him later?

So here we go, i have a planner....like i always do and never use....and now, we are going to start using it. Per the fabulous Chee who said "why don't you just write one thing down you want to get done per day" damn her for being all rational and shit. So i'm gonna! Also i'm going to stop avoiding the things i want to do because Mr. Big won't go with me or might call or might or might or might....fuck this might shit. I've passed up too much because of my ridiculousness.

NOW...don't go and think i'm not going to be ridiculous anymore...cause well...i'm pretty sure it's just in my genes....but i'm going to stop missing out on life because i'm strung up in lazyness, Mr. Big or my own self pity...oh yeah no more self pity! or some shit.....

The look cute challenge.....well kinda cause i'm already cute...oh

Ok so the cousin and I have decided to dress cute for one week...i mean like makeup, clothes and hair....like put effort in and all. Usually effort is reserved for weekends or going out....during the work week....well fuck it i like to sleep man.

So for 5 days....just five mother effing days i'm gonna do makeup, hair and an outfit and i'll take pics cause i'm cute anyway and who doesn't like seeing me? ahahah ok i'm a little narcissistic...whatever

Also we are back on the diet....yes again...always....forever...seriously i don't even wanna lose that much damn it!

Ok so today is also day one of dental assistant school....i'm scared...don't laugh asshole it's kinda scary! So i'm hoping that i'm not a douchebag and fail miserably....i'm thinking that if i do well then after i might go to school in TX to get my dental hygienist license..they make like 80 grand a year.....80 GRAND A DAMN YEAR PEOPLE!! Also....ALSO i'm so excited to move to TX i'm hoping to get there by may....the houses out there are so adorable and there are pools and heat and fun and Mr. Big is far away even though that terrifies/excites me.....ugh....

dear god....please let me meet a non-douchebag who i won't hate sometimes or want to punch in the face :) and also let him look like Reggie Bush and be hung like.....whoa TMI...sorry guys

here's a little muffin to look at...stud muffin that is...ha ok i'm a dork...sweet baby jesus i want this man.....ok i'm done i swear


p.s.
dear mr. bush...please fine your way to my house so i can molest you...you'll like it....i swear

Well fuck me...

So here is what I’ve decided…….if one more person I know has a baby or gets married I’m going to fucking scream….i swear to God!

So I’m talking to Georgia (the ex, not his real name obviously ha) and he says he hasn’t proposed to his gf because he doesn’t have the money….if he gets married before me I’ll off myself….mark my words, wrists slit! Ok maybe I’m exaggerating a tiny bit cause I’d like never kill myself but HOLY FUCKING HELL ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!?

I wish Mr. Big (yes I just called him that because well….he reminds me of Mr. Big except that I don’t get a diamond ring in the end and a wedding at city hall…..so he’s like Mr. Big in the first couple of seasons) would get his crap together or that I would stop feeling anything for him…..except that that’s like a friggin IMPOSSIBILITY! It’s funny cause my feelings for Georgia went away, I mean I love him like I love my brothers or whatever but that seemed way easier for some reason. Like my feelings were just done…yes there was a brief period where I wanted him back and thought I made a mistake but then I met Mr. Big and everything else seemed to go away. AH stupid men. I know that maybe moving isn’t/is my best idea but I need something else man….i am weak and cannot resist the man….as in Mr. Big not the friggin government….although I can’t resist them either but yeah anyway.



I’m exhausted guys…..just plain spent

Food Inc, still chubby and putting my hands in peoples mouths.....yes?

Ok so i just got done watching Food Inc and seriously it's amazing what you don't know. I have decided that i'm going to do my best to avoid meat or buy organic, no more fast food ever!!! and all in all pay attention to what shit i put in my mouth!

So i went to the site and there are a few things you can do so i'm gonna have some rules....yes i suck at rules but fuck you, you do too

                                   1. meatless mondays
                                   2. Avoid sugary drinks like soda
                                   3.Try to eat at home as much as possible

i know it's stuff we've all said but seriously it's scary to see what they do to our food and how our safety doesn't matter as long as they are making the money. Dude i get it, i want money too but seriously i'd like to not die from ecoli in the process.please and thank you!!

So starting tomorrow little sara is not so much boycotting as actively paying attention to the shit she buys and shoves in her chubby little mouth. I know that i'm only one person but really it's not so much as saying FUCK you big meat/sugar/corn/processed food companies as it is saying i don't want to die from random, unknown shit that i may eat thinking it's ok because there are government agencies regulating things.....not sure if ya'll know but uh.....they aren't regulating very well . This is not to say i'm becoming a vegetarian and i'll never have another hostess cupcake again BUT i will be limiting them as much as possible or finding better alternatives as not to support the horribleness that is the big food guys.....just sayin man just sayin


Ok i've hopped off my box.....

So yeah still chubby but am working on that as noted above ha! and, AND i start school on the 28th for dental assistant so i'll be shoving my hands in people's mouths.....you're welcome :) Luckily i'll have gloves for this so i won't have to touch the real nastyness that is peoples mouths.....nasty wenches!

and..............................i'm out!

I don't know man, this is me with random thoughts!!

So it's summer in Seattle FINALLY! And it's like 80ish degrees today and i'm the happiest girl ever cause i can sit in the sun and wear shorts and sunglasses and drink fruity beverages and omg i'm gonna explode!!

Ok so all i really got today was sunglasses, a skirt and sitting in the sun.....but fuck it i'll take it! So i'm still totally thinking of moving to Texas and am so utterly excited i might pee myself......ok probably not but really it's been known to happen.....oh shut up!

So i'm not sure if you noticed but for 3 weeks i've remained the same weight......cause i'm a chubby chub chub but.....BUT i haven't gained.......that has to be good yeah? Fuck you it's good. So i'm trying my hardest to eat healthy except i totally just had a fat cookie from the bakery downstairs...shit .....cookie has ruined me....

Oh and i've decided to give up on men unless a man that looks like reggie bush or tyrese comes up to me in a suit......or wife beater.......or just boxers........or or or.........ok no but really reggie if you can hear me please show up at my door and insist on making my everything come true lol....i'll loves you i swears!! Apparently i need to get out more and possibly maybe stop fantasising about lovely, delicious, chocolately..........oh sorry

Ok fine, i'm done for now........well

Nutella, fucking ebay and i'm bored.....very bad combination

Ok i admit i am not the most patient girl ever but......BUT i ordered an ipod from ebay right? and fucking bastard still hasn't sent it or given me a tracking number and he takes forever to email me back.....someone is going to get fucking punched in the fucking testicles if i don't get my fucking ipod!!!!!!!!!!! ok he may actually be a she i'm not really sure cause well, it's ebay but SOMEONE IS GETTING PUNCHED IN THE TESTICLES!!!! i swear it

Yes i'm insane, let's move on

So last night i ate what seemed to be a ridiculous amount of nutella because it cost me 10 fucking weight watcher points and i ended up having to pour pepper into it in order to keep chubby mcchub chub grub hands out of it....that's me in case you didn't figure it out. Now i have to work out today and tomorrow to break even....why do i do this to myself?

And i've decided that y career may be.....dun dun dun......dental assistant! I'm gonna go to school for it and see how i like it...hopefully a lot cause i need a grown up job

and

and


and


I'M MOVING TO TEXAS!!! I know you're thinking "what in the fucking fuck is in Texas?" well soon it will be me :) but no really i'm gonna go to Austin. I've done some research and it seems pretty friggin spectacular! and i'm bored.....i have no children/husband/boyfriend holding me back so i'm gonna make a run for the border....except not really cause i'm staying in texas and not going to mexico but i'm sure there are plenty who have crossed the border and are now coyotes for human smuggling and wtf how am i on this topic?

But no really they have sun and fun and sara! i'm telling you the third one is the best but let's not go too far.....or something

ok i'm going to work out so that i'm not chubby mcchub chub.....well

Broken coffee cup, still chubbeh, match.com?

Dear Coffee Cup,

         Stop being an asshole!


                                 Love Sara


So i have this coffee cup right? and it was totally awesome when i first got it but now.....well now i want to throw it out the window. It totally keeps my coffee warm but to open the drinky part you have to push the button down right? Sounds simple enough? Hell i was doing it pretty well for awhile there.....now, NOW it wants to stick and not move.....son of a .......so i have to buy a new one or have no coffee......COFFEE IS A MUST!

So.....update......i'm still chubby....i'm sure you totally thought i'd have lost 40lbs overnight but shockingly enough.......it didnt' happen~!

And i joined match.com because i'm a sad sad little girl.....after 4 years with R i feel like i'm old and will never get married or have babies...i'm only half exaggerating on this people! So i thought wtf i'll give it a try and i instantly regretted it after i gave them my credit card info BUT i have 6 months to i suppose find my true love.......wuv troo wuv.....so fuck it we are on match.com peoples! Wish me luck or that i don't get killed by some raving lunatic who seems normal enough until i go to his house and there's pics of me everywhere and little baby doll heads hanging from the ceiling......or some random shit.......or i'm gonna be in a hole in the floor with a poodle like in silence of the lambs....ok so maybe this is why i'm single? Cause i'm ridiculous

Well shit now i have to go work and crap because no one pays me to blog.....son of a....

So this is how this crappity crap crap is gonna work?

So here's the deal......my life is ridiculously ridiculous right now........like daytime drama, night line, Maury ridiculous....OK well maybe i exaggerate a tiny bit.....just a tiny though!!

I've decided if this is how shit is gonna go then I'm gonna start drinking......we don't have an alcoholic in the family so fuck it I'll man up and take one for the team...or something. Again not the most grown up response to stress but really, I DON'T WANT TO BE A GROWN UP ANYMORE!

So me and R break up....i know you are thinking again? for realsies? when are you gonna go back to him? fuck you, i have a slight attachment to the bastard I GET IT.....but no it's for realsies this time......then i get a visit from the po po's (haahahahahahh shit that made me lol) saying guess what? and I'm like what? and they're like do you know so and so and I'm like yes i totally do know so and so and they are like oh they are in jail.......WHAT THE FUCKITY FUCK???? So now i have all this law and order grown up shit to deal with and no one prepared me for this so I'm totally winging it and hoping beyond all hope i'm not fucking up anything for said jailbird...ha sorry that you have to rely on me dude!

Oh and I'm obsessed with the show weeds now.....because i have no life, no boyfriend, no sex BUT i have wine and weeds......i should have wine and weed but whatever I'll settle for what is not illegal and what is easily accessible to me! Also while watching said show, it makes me feel a little less like a complete fuck up because things could be way worse.......please god do not let them get way worse cause I'm two seconds away from alcoholism and that's just not pretty!

I do believe that i am done ranting for now.....i think.......well we'll see later now won't we?

p.s.
sorry to everyone for my complete UN-ladylike language and severe bi-polarness blurt outs

Well shit i'm fat.....

Well this will come as no shock to those who know me but i.....i am fat....i mean i'm not so fat i can't do normal everyday things like tie my shoes or fit in my car but i'm a chunky monkey!! So i've decided to use this here blog for my weight loss as well. I figure if i'm completely honest (dear lord help us all) with myself and all of you then maybe, just maybe it will help get my ass motiviated. Sounds good right??

Ok so here goes.....my current weight is.................oh god..............please don't judge.............shit..........203lbs............yes i'm officially OBESE......i weigh more than an average man and that my dear friends is sad and makes me a tiny bit hateful to this poor little body of mine BUT there is no one to blame except myself.

So starting tomorrow i'm going to go back on the WW points and exercise at least 3 times a week.....i'm completely able, have no disability (fuck you laziness does count! i mean um...), HAVE A TREADMILL IN MY DAMN HOUSE!!

Most of all i'm tired of saying ok i'm gonna start on monday, ok i screwed up but i'll try again monday, ok no for realsies i'm gonna start monday......well tomorrow is THURSDAY and i'm gonna start. What pisses me off most is i tell R that i'm gonna start and he says "sure you are" dude fuck you asshole you are skinny and no one likes you! ok a tad bit dramatic but he is skinny and no one i know likes him so yeah! or something.....so i tell him i'm gonna and i don't care if he believes me and he says "sara you've been saying you were gonna work out all week" damn him for remembering everytime i say i'm going to work out!

SO now you heffers ( i mean that with all the love in the world) are going to not only hear about my ridiculous life but now you have to listen to me piss and moan because i can't eat everything with cheese and ranch dressing or i'm tired and don't want to work out.....yep sucks to be you guys.

but seriously i have these shorts that i bought and i really really REALLY want to wear them this summer and although they technically fit........seriously like 10-15lbs less of me would look WAY better in them!!

Ok so here's the plan...tomorrow i eat only my points and i work out....no pissing and moaning............well what i really mean is no matter the amount of pissing and moaning i may.....sorry...... I WILL do, i have to do this.....come on 160!!!!

*STAB*

Holy mother of God could this week BE any more ridiculous?!?!?!!?!?

Ok i may be a little dramatic but not much....i swear. So school started, i've been eating like total donkey shit and my fucking period is coming........so i'm stressed, fat and my boobs hurt........TMI? well suck it up bitches TMI is what you get with this here blog (total southern country back woods accent)

I got a laptop last night, from what i see it's most awesome! We'll see how i feel about it in 2 days after i've either A) dropped it or 2) well....dropped it.....or can't get it to do what i want....or can't figure it out....or...or......thank god for the men in my life who are all technical and shit.

i just read the nicoleisbetter blog and she was talking about a website that has dildos in the shape of an animals dick.........seriously? SERIOUSLY? know what i don't need? a fucking horse dick!......well.........ok no no not like that but really R's not very small..........ok dear god stop with this *stab*......

I've decided if i don't stop eating, learn to cut off my own fat or somehow manage to workout whilst still sitting on my ass........well someone may just die. I am 36lbs away from where i want to be........not a lot but certainly not fucking close.......seriously why can't i be small? i don't think i ask for much.....much.......ok well maybe

Oh god fuck this i'm out

I actually love valentines day *sigh*....this year at least...ha!

So i spent the day with the boy......it was so damn awesome. I walked into his room and there was black blanket/table cover thingies on his nightstands and on my side of the bed there was a thing of roses and some chocolate.....he doesn't do romantic often but apparently when he does it he does it big.

sSo i had asked for a ring for v-day and he said that he had to buy tabs and license plates so he wasnt able to get it for me....i was upset but completely fine with this because all that mattered was that i spent the day with my baby. So we went to bj's and had dinner and then decided to rent movies....in the car on th way to hollywood video he pulls something out of his jacket pocket....a little black box....sadly i still have not put two and two together....i was thinking well maybe it's earings or something else....then i opened it

OMG HE GOT ME THE RING IT'S THE MOST ADORABLE THING EVER but........it doesn't fit :( my hands are too small so i gotta get it sized.....

So i'm all smiles and giggly and probably red and he's like "you didn't really think i wasn't going to get it for you did you?" .....uh yeah i did think that cause tha'ts what you said fucker! so i put it on and we continue driving and he kisses my hand and really at this point i'm so damn giddy that i could just bubble over! Oh and we rented the time travelers wife lol so the poor boy

Oh and yeah he put out ahahahahahahah TMI? To bad you're reading my blog fucker not the other way around!

So all in all yesterday was the greatest day ever hee hee.....oh and i got him presents too lol but this post isn't about him ha!


So today is monday and i have tuesday and wednesday (as well as today) off and i have so much homework....that i of course am avoiding right now....damn it sara! Ugh i have nothing more to type but seriously do not want to have to get back to school work.....well fuck



p.s.
i freaking love my boy *sigh*